Just wanted to say “Thanks” to all my YouTube subscribers: over 1000 of you now!
Swimsuit 2.0
March 12, 2009 - 2 Responses
This is a repost of my “Swimsuit” video with new music and a brief update at the end. Also, it’s now remastered in HD.
The original video had its audio disabled for copyright infringement. (Warner Music Group owns the rights to Nina Simone’s version of “Summertime,” and they are apparently not into the whole sharing thing.)
I posted the original video on April 19, 2008. Here’s the original description:
It’s swimsuit season, and I’m over 50 lbs. fatter now than I was just a year ago! [I'm 20 lbs. fatter than that now.]
Does this mean it’s time to diet or just time to buy a bigger swimsuit?
Let me know what you think.
Inspiring Gainers (part 1)
March 8, 2009 - 4 Responses
For many, many years, I dreamed about gaining but kept myself thin. If you’ve seen my videos, you know that fantasy has now moved into the realm of reality for me. I used to fantasize about being an enormous 230 pounds. Now I’m a good 30 pounds past that old dream and still growing.
But what was it that motivated me to finally make those dreams come true? What inspired me to finally take the plunge?
Well, a large part of what inspired me to finally start gaining was my intense jealousy of three YouTube gainers. Seeing the transformations they’d made to their bodies, and–most importantly–how proud they were of those transformations just drove me nuts. Here were guys who’d actually done what I’d only dreamed about. Why should they have all the fun?
The first of these inspiring gainers goes by the screen name “loveforphotography.” (That’s a mouthful, so I’ll call him LFP for short, ok?) I wish I could link to his videos here, but he’s removed them all from YouTube. (I’ll have more to say about that later.) But trust me, his videos were awesome and awe inspiring and filled me with envy and a lust to get fat.
LFP is the reason I talk in my videos. He was one of the first gainers I saw not just showing off his belly but bragging about it too, which I find much sexier and more exciting than all the anonymous, mute bellies one usually sees on YouTube.
Fortunately, I watched his first video so much I pretty much memorized it. Even more fortunately, I happen to have some screen captures from it:
In this video, LFP sits in his chair, caressing and displaying his fat body. He also tells us he’s 5′ 6″ and now weighs 210 pounds (making his BMI a comfortably Obese 33.9). He says he went to the gym recently, just to get his body fat percentage checked out mind you. (I just love the idea of him waddling into the gym for a fat assessment.) Turns out he’s 38% fat. Two years before the video, he was around 130 pounds, so he’s gained 80 pounds! And he says he’d like to get up to 300. He casually tells us, while shaking the fat on his belly, moobs, and arms to demonstrate: “I’m pretty much flabby all over now, which I like.”
He spends a lot of the video gloating about how fat he’s gotten and also showing off his stretch marks. There are lots of gainers who are, inexplicably to me, ashamed of their stretch marks, but here’s a guy reveling in his, displaying them with pride.
He had a couple of other videos too, and he talks in both of them as well. In one, he tries to wiggle himself into a pair of 34 inch jeans with delightfully limited success:
In another, he just plays with his sublimely plump belly:
They were both great videos, but neither could match the electric impact that that first video had on me. I found that first video simply mesmerizing. I was deeply, totally jealous of LFP, a guy who had gotten fat the way I’d always wanted to and clearly loved it.
So what happened to him? Well he removed his whole YouTube channel quite a while ago, disappearing the way folk on the internet sometimes do. But a few days ago, LFP updated his BeefyFrat and BiggerCity profiles to show that he’s down to 160 pounds now (from a majestic 220 pound high) and has become an encourager rather than a gainer. (He has also miraculously grown younger!) He’s removed all his old, fat pictures and replaced them with images of his younger, thinner, and more socially acceptable body.
Well, I wish LFP all the best and certainly hope he’s just as happy now with his thin body as he once clearly was with his fat one. And, of course, I thank him for inspiring me to be a bigger man.
Since this post is already pretty long, I’ll save my account of the other two gainers who inspired me to finally take action for later.
UPDATE:
March 15, 2009
Looks like LFP is back to gaining! Apparently around mid-February he quit starving himself and decided once again to embrace food, fat, and the good life. He’s already up to 180 and practically bursting out of his clothes; it’s quite a sight: BeefyFrat. Oh how quickly a little self-indulgence repairs the damage caused by months and months of pointless self-denial and sweaty self-discipline! Here’s hoping LFP keeps on getting fatter and happier and that he makes lots and lots of sexy, inspiring videos along the way.
254 Now!
January 23, 2009 - 10 Responses
Once Upon A Time . . .
I was skinny.
Now I’m FAT.
Which do you prefer?
PS: I know it’s been a long time since the last time I posted a video. When will I make my next one?
Whenever the hell I feel like it!
Swimsuit
April 19, 2008 - 24 Responses
It’s swimsuit season, and I’m over 50 pounds fatter now than I was just a year ago!
Does this mean it’s time to diet or just time to buy a bigger swimsuit?
Let me know what you think.
UPDATE:
March 20, 2009
YouTube made me replace the original audio on this video because of “copyright violation.”
To see this video in HD with all my commentary, new music, and an update on my swimsuit situation, check out Swimsuit 2.0.
Second Thoughts
April 2, 2008 - 12 Responses
I’m having some serious second thoughts about gaining.
In fact, I’m not gaining right now. I have lost a few pounds already and plan to lose a lot more.
The reason is pretty simple: gaining isn’t healthy (even if you exercise daily, even if you eat a scrupulously balanced diet, even if the medical/diet establishment exaggerates the risks of weight gain). Being fat is just not as healthy as being lean.
The gaining community, by and large, just ignores this because it is, to coin a phrase, an inconvenient truth. I mean, really, who wants to think about heart attacks and strokes when they’re trying to get their rocks off? Certainly not me!
And I cannot deny that being fat is a huge turn on for me, but then I think smoking looks sexy as hell too, but that doesn’t mean I plan to pick up the habit.
I think most gainers understand the risks of their behavior at least as well as smokers do, but they just decide that, for them, the benefits outweigh the risks. Unfortunately, they rarely talk about such calculations.
One who has, the amazingly honest and forthcoming StupidGit, has recently written about his doubts in his typically courageous way, but it seems that he’s made his peace with his misgivings and is now forging ahead. I’m genuinely happy for him, I’m jealous even, but I’m too troubled to take that path myself.
Taking Stock
March 21, 2008 - 9 Responses
I’ve gained 55 lbs in just 4 months. Yes I’m grateful, but I’m also greedy. I want more!
I’m getting bigger, but my gains are slowing down. You can help reverse this depressing trend by leaving your comments.
Encourage me and I’ll get fatter; don’t and I may just dwindle away: unappreciated, thin, and miserable.
Adipophilia
February 20, 2008 - 8 Responses
I did NOT write this.
It was written by the lovely and talented Adipophiliac who kindly consented to let me read his incredible work here.
You can read the text of “On Adipophilia” in the Beefy Frat Library at http://www.beefyfrat.com/library.cfm?storyid=591
What Took Me So Long?
February 14, 2008 - 6 Responses
I’ve been telling people that if I’d known how much fun gaining would be, I’d have started years ago. That’s not exactly true though. I knew how much I’d love gaining; after all, I’d been fantasizing about gaining since my early 20s, when I discovered Belly Builders.
So why did I wait so long?
Fear.
I was afraid of what people would think of me if I got fat. I had always been the skinny one, the one who works out. What would my friends and family say? Well now that I’ve gained some some weight (about 44 lbs. since November 15), I’ve discovered that family and friends don’t really say much. People are too polite, generally, to point out that you’re getting fat. Oh, I’ve gotten a few comments, but for the most part, people are too busy with their own lives to worry about someone else’s weight.
I was afraid that no one would ever find me attractive if I got fat. Although, I was turned on by seeing guys get fat, I was convinced that no one would want to see me get fat. Well, it turns out that some of you guys out there like seeing me fat. That’s very gratifying, let me tell you. But more important than that, I feel sexier and more attractive the fatter I get. Even when I was really buff, I never felt like this.
I was afraid that getting fat would ruin my health. Well, although I think the hysteria about being overweight is overblown, it’s probably true that, all things being equal, I’d be healthier if I were thin. So what? Anyone can live a perfectly safe, perfectly healthy life: never drink, never smoke, never drive over the speed limit, never get a tan, never overeat. But what kind of life is that? And guess what? Skinny people die too, skinny people get heart disease and diabetes and high blood pressure. What skinny people don’t get is the pleasure of being fat.
Most of all, I was afraid to let myself be happy. It takes courage to really live your life rather than just hedging all your bets, worrying constantly whether you’re doing the “right” thing. Getting fat makes me feel great: sexy, self-confident, and bold. It’s an incredible, and liberating, feeling.
Still, I don’t think I’d ever have taken the plunge if I hadn’t been inspired by three very special internet gainers. Who are they? Well, in my next few posts, I’ll tell you who they are and how each one of them made me want to be a bigger man. Stay tuned.
